extremities

Apparently God decided to give me another version of my ultimate wish...

Crazy how newborns and geriatrics become similar...life's extremities is very weird and cruel.

But when it's 3 times my body weight my muscles ache and my body pleads, I'm my grandma's mom in a sense...she did call me "mother" yesterday.

Between waking up every two hours in the middle of the night and she thinking I don't sleep...I do...I wanna sleep actually but I'm a light sleeper and I hear her so I get up.

When the nurse came in the morning I finally slept uninterrupted for two hours maybe...

In a sense I am a mother...but my body is too tired of carrying the weight of everything and not just the 200 pounds of body weight.

I had a coffee with green tea to keep me from collapsing and getting ready to bathe her.