Been avoiding sleep so when I finally slept last night woke up very relaxed yet very disoriented and took me a while to figure what I'm doing and who am I...
Then prepped breakfast for Rana and I, having Rana around has been such a help honestly making me feel good...she feeds me three times a day lol...I literally feel stuffed...
I finally started opening up a little today and talked with her then I had this thought that...it wouldn't matter cause she probably won't get it...
Then I thought that honestly the only person that would get whatever I'll say is Yahia...I really do miss him and I actually told him so...and I feel that whenever he gets back (which hopefully is soon lol) maybe I'll be able to talk or maybe I won't ...talking feels heavy sometimes...right now it does...
It's just that I've never felt like the black sheep after talking to him...
I think it goes both ways...hope it does...
Anyways...where was I..yes, so apparently tiring myself to sleep is the answer right now I feel my eyelids being heavy and the sweet embrace of sleep approaching...the sky is so clear which makes me happy and cause I could see my favorite star...having a favorite star will always be my comfort activity
Anyways so cheers to good sleep I guess...
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