Dear future kids

Dear kids, If you ever read this in the future here are a few things I want you to know...or actually a few things I have recently learned about myself. I never knew one could love their kids before even meeting them but I adore you...it's almost like I actually know your personalities and how you would be like...crazy I know... Some might say I'm insane or have baby fever but no...I feel you inside my soul sometimes... I will gladly give you my time and I promise to never be one of those women that keep saying they sacrificed their career for kids, that's not sacrificial for me but rather done out of love...and if that means I stay home and leave work for good then be it... When you are toddlers and are struggling with those big feelings that you can't express yet, I will be by your side and try to comfort you every way possible; because as an adult I can get pretty emotional and I can't imagine how it must feel when you're tiny and can't even form proper sentences...and when there are toys all over the place you'll teach me how to be patient and we'll tidy it up together... And when you are in school and have trouble doing long division we will learn it together...yes I don't know how long division works its embarassing hehehe. I want you to have the best chilhood possible and if that means you color over the walls everyday then I would gladly paint the walls, I wanna build legos with you and learn how to live through you... And when you're all teenagers and feel that the world is crumbling due to an issue that I might or might not understand I will still support you and help guide you through it... Our house will be the warm cozy house that hosts all your friends on weekends cause they like hanging there...its gonna be filled with baked goods and love. I know I will learn a lot from you and that its gonna be one hell of a journey, maybe not all days will be rainbows and sunshine but even the rainy days will be worth it...I know I can't protect you at all times but I'll try to keep the dust away from your souls with all that I have got and I wish you never have to even know what anxiety is or experience it at all...I had to learn that its all in my head but I took the long road. Also know that at the end of the day, leave whatever is bothering you...give it to god's hands and just go to sleep...god is good he truly is and I also didn't really trust that if I just stop worrying and leave it to god I'll feel fine, until I did and I cried tears of joy...our human mind is so limited compared to what god is... and god is everything he is beyond time and space the greatest and highest power above us all...so kids just trust god and be close to him... And if you ever think I'm not on the same page as you please communicate it with me and even guide me if you have to and always keep in mind that I'm here to guide you and love you. Unconditionally love you even if you get on bed with your outside clothes and shoes but I won't let you sleep until you change the whole bedding...sorry kiddos but its my biggest pet peeve. Oh and girls, I'm sorry but I'll have to teach you how to dance, you can choose to take it or leave it but you'll have to learn it...I mean can't imagine MY daughters not dancing cause I know you'll have the genes for its impossible not to hehe Lastly, never let anyone belittle you and take a stand against those who do you wrong...and always know your worht. And be kind to people kindness is the best thing you can do...and don't let the cruelness and greedyness of people get inside your beautiful hearts. love you always.