Huh?

You ever had a moment of realization almost like an epiphany?...we all had at some point; however, it just hit me that sometimes we plan for major life things that would probably contradict with one another. There's something in life that I crave more than anything else, its like an itch deep deep deep within me...and there's this other thing that I'm very passionate about but they both contradict...I never noticed this or at least pretended it isn't true until someone mentioned it to me. So...let's face it...nobody gets to experience 100% of life...can happen though, however its not always the case... For me, I know my choice if it comes to choosing only one thing with 0% compromize...maybe I'll try to think of ways to still follow my passion but when it comes to which one I'll compromize I'll drop it in a heart beat and just leave it behind. Part of me is screaming while I'm writing this but deep down I just know...It's just that I somehow had always had this sense of doing everything at once or maybe living in survival mode for waaaay too long and being used to multitask everything at once; and...honsetly speaking since I'm a worldclass multitasker I can assure the whole world that multitasking never gets you perfect outcomes 90% maybe but NEVER 100%. Sooo...after thinking for the past few hours until I could almost hear my brain scream I have reached this cocnclusion here that I'm typing away, and I'm actually pretty convinced and relaxed about my decision...and also for the first time ever that I have finally totally understood some of the major life choices that my workaholic aunt has taken in her life...pround of her always but finally saw everything from her end. And since everyone's priorities are different I totally understand the differences but for some reason just writing down my priorities in life and visualising life maybe 3 to 5 years from now makes everything more clear. Moreover, although I still don't know how I'm going to get that desire or things in the next 5 years but I know that I have this desire so strongly because god had already prepared that for me, so I just have to trust because I KNOW that in the grand scheme of things everything works out exactly the way its supposed to but as humans we tend to get in our head about everything in life EXACTLY how its supposed to...like lego projects, when you're building legos especially the large ones at first they all look like nothing would fit in its place but at the end of the day "Look its a tree" or "look its a flower bouquet" ...and btw lego flowers are the coolest thing ever hopefully i'll get the whole bouquet...okay enough lego fan-girling hehe So yeah...apparently its a matter of choosing which is worth LITERALLY living for.