1:35 pm

Lately I feel very distant from myself, and when I say lately I mean for like the last six months...I know people change and that no one stays the same but this doesn't feel like change...it feels like distance. I really miss how I used to feel or be and I'm trying to find my way back to that person. Not everybody liked her and that's ok but at least I did... I didn't just like her I was borderline obsessed. She was very focused didn't have a lot of friends only a few but they felt enough and she felt supported and loved. When I think about it, it feels like the person I'm talking about is a different person but it's actually me. Yes I've been through a few situations that made me lose her for a while but I started being her again and it felt ecstatic. This past week I stepped into my old routine bit by bit and I felt it again...I felt like myself again for the first time in at least six months. But I started thinking...that some of the people I met along the way those past six months don't really know me cause they haven't actually met the other me or should I say me ....THEY HAVEN'T REALLY MET ME.

I actually can't wait for myself to actually be 100% back and to meet everyone like we never met before. 

So I guess right now I have to say...till we meet again!