Discover your inner self

Lately I've been discovering my inner self, my deepest emotions and desires. It's actually been an adventure of ups and downs...but what I actually noticed is that it's quite simple and I can easily connect with myself.
I dim the lights and light a candle sitting on the floor I start meditating the feel of peacefulness fills the room and the salty scent of the candle makes me nostalgic.
I'm always nostalgic to the sea and how my hair becomes salty, and to cold winter nights when a cup of hot chocolate makes me warm.
I love the winter sun but I'm not a big fan of summer... I just like the sun the way a sunflower does.
I get lost inside my head then a knock on the door takes me back to the loud busy world, I pay the pizza delivery boy and shut the door behind me, then sit on the floor eating my favorite kind of food watching my favorite series.
I probably need to go to bed by now... I put half of my pizza in the fridge and head to the bathroom... I take a shower and wash my teeth.
That makes me think about how my everyday life has turned into more of a routine... why can't I just wake up to sight of the blue sea with sunflowers all over the place.